Capture Your Grief - Day 13: Book...

I have always read books. When I was younger I liked reading novels, particularly stories about old England and tragic love tales, like Wuthering Heights... but I have always read books about personal growth, maybe in a quest to make some meaning of this life I am living, but mostly because they 'made sense' to me. I had so many ideas about how life could be that it was good to find that I was not the only one who was thinking that way.

After Mikaila was born I continued to read, and I read books about grief, losing a baby, pregnancy after the loss of a child... and they helped me at the time... although I think for the same reasons as the personal growth books did. They acknowledged and supported my own beliefs and thoughts.

I find I read very little now. I don't seem to 'have the time', although I know that if reading was something I really wanted to be doing, I would make the time. I think the truth of it is that I have read so many books that now they seem to just repeat the same thing and I find there is very little that is 'new' to me. That combined with the fact that I seem to read a paragraph and start falling asleep these days!

I believe that we already know everything there is to know. It is within us and remains within us throughout our lives. It is a matter of connecting with that knowledge and trusting our intuitive self to provide answers that are right for us... and what is right for each of us will be sometimes very different and that is very much ok.

So my picture today is a stack of books I have on my bedside table - all of them I have read at least once. An angel bookmark that was a Christmas gift for Mikaila. And a chalkboard - symbolising that our learning never truly ends... Although learning often is purely a realisation that we already knew in the first place!